Warning im gonna write my thoughts as they occur

The words aren't really coming to me right now.
The pen goes in circles not able to form words.
My mind is blank
And so the page stays the same
You know what
I'm in all honesty tired of this game.
The whole he said she said bullshit
Talk to me, tell me whats good
DOnt talk shit behind my back
Dont tell me you love me
when your going to go behind my back like that
If you dont give two shits about me
Tell me that.
Dont Hide behind a four letter word you don't mean

NEW SUBJECT
hey go ahead do some more coke
We all think your a joke
It doesnt make you cool
Ya we all look up to those who drop out of school
I love you so much bro
But honestly you alienate me more and more
With each time you reach for that blow
You never could stay away could you
never could be honest or speak whats true
Come on man look at you
do you like what you have become
Do you like to see what you have done
You could have been so much
You had such potential
but you threw it all away
for what?
to have fun for just today?
DUDE!
what about your future
What about Your friends
What about blake?
You can't even stay clean for her sake
Honestly she deserves better
Dont know why i wasted my time asking her to write a letter
She deserves a MAN
Not a boy who doesnt understand consequences
She deserves so much
Not your callous touch
DUDE
get it together
And call me when your clean
Until then
Dont waste my time
Or destroy another persons life
sorry if this is to raw, to mean
but let me know when your gonna be my "scene"
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WOW that was intense i feel bad
but good
feel like i got that off my chest
and like a weight has been lifted
Im kinda afraid to reread this for the fact that i wont want to post
So i set it to autopost at 8 tonight.
Im going to reread it
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I LIKE IT
I reread it and liked it
Wow
That never happens
Hmmm what now?
think i am gonna see whats good at the cottage
Even though i know its a boring over there
as it is here
but its all good
cause ill blast my ipod on the way over
and let BMTH tell me its all good
Let me get it out
HEll might even shout
out those lyrics
Wow im a dork