A Journey Inside the Soul of the Ashamed

Lust
Why does poison taste so sweet
Why does suicide feel so great
Why this act so addictive
Why this sin do I constantly repeat
A cry for help is a cry for shame
This beast so hard to tame
This guest I invite and entertain
And yet hate and want to shove outside
About it I have constantly lied
I it is loved and yet despised
And to let this beast live or die
Is a battle that rages inside.

I wrote this poem about two years ago when I was really struggling with lust and pornography. This Poem actually really helped me visualize the struggle that was going on inside me. It helped me see what I was doing to myself day in and day out. This is probably one of the top five most self-influencing pieces I have written. Every time I open my book to write a new poem i find myself re-reading this piece and being so thankful that I chose to overcome my issue with lust and it gives me new resolve to not allow myself to return down the path that lead me to years of pain.